Monday, February 25, 2008

Living In The Moment

If all of a sudden our past was erased and our future was irrelevant, what would be the defining reality of our life? In that present moment of time, what would matter the most to us? At the root of our soul, at the core of our being, what would be the driving force behind our own existence? What does it all come down to?

The one answer to these questions for any particular person is the one thing that defines what that person is living for, what that person worships, and what that person has placed on the throne of their heart. This is the reality that that forms their thoughts and makes their decisions.

When the one answer is the one thing that truly matters... to dwell in the inner chamber of our heart in the presence of the Holy Divine Light, to gaze at the beauty of His face, to exchange love with Him, to be totally and completely consumed by the fire of His love, and to live only for this love... if this is the answer then we are in the right place.

We must abide always in this Oracle of Fire... the One True Flame that burns eternally. This is the Reality that we must live for. This is what should matter to us the most if we only had the present moment we are living in. What happens to our souls in the hours we spend in this secret place of fire and love is the ultimate reality. It is what defines who we are... it is what makes us and creates our identity in Him. What happens in these moments with Him is what we will remember for the rest of our lives. In these moments He will make everything clear to us and will shine on our hearts. He will be in us, all around us, and we will be in Him. He will give us "little wonders" and revelations of Himself as He continually brushes our soul with His love. The outside world and time itself will seem to disappear. Our pain and hurts will fall away and only His love will remain.

The song "Little Wonders" by Rob Thomas describes this...



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Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Who Are You?

I do not know God. I have a conception of God, but lack the full reality of who He is. Who are you? I feel your great divine reality, but you feel so alien... yet beautifully intriguing. I want to know You. Tell me who you are... Who are You?

I am.

You are the I am... and I am the You are. This knowledge is too great, to big for me. A holy, burning fear of the reality of God in and around me... It feels as if my head and mind are being compressed and crushed while my heart is growing and expanding. I feel my intellect and thoughts dying. An image of the cross and a sense of an inner washing of a new light.

I am falling down into, yet away from myself. Into the core, the core of my inner being, into a power great, yes greater than myself. Inside, yet all around, all-encompassing power, inside this massively great and immensely cosmic Force. I am repeatedly seized by His exhilaration as waves of an urgent love sweep over my soul. A bitterly sweet energy... a pleasure that leaves me feeling burnt, wretched, and empty, as I am stripped down to the core of who I am. I realize then that I have nothing to offer Him for I am empty. So I offer Him this dead and empty shell of a human soul, so that He may come to eventually fill me with His breath, bringing true life and beauty in place of what has died. As I offer myself, I realize... I am not. For only You are I am.

This was a painful yet extraordinary revelation, but I feel as though I am on an ancient path every man must take... every man who wishes to find true and complete union with the Living God.

Who are You?

I am.

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Friday, February 08, 2008

Infused Contemplation

I have recently began praying every morning with Jeff, a good friend of mine, who the Lord has given much insight and revelation in the area of infused contemplative prayer. It is simply changing my life, friend. I am realizing that this is, as Jeff believes, the single most powerful thing any believer can do. This, in fact, does not describe it well at all, because in infused contemplation, there is really nothing one should "do" in the sense of self-effort or action. On the contrary, it is the absence of self-effort or self-will that makes this form of prayer so powerful because in contemplative prayer, as one postures his heart to receive, one's own will is surrendered to God, and we begin to experience a new burning love inside, the soft "brushes" of His Spirit, and the flaming passionate glory of the indwelling nature of the Divine.

Those who meet God in this profound way realize that these experiences are ineffable. The deep extacy felt in this contact with the Divine is unspeakable. Sometimes, it is best not to try to express or describe it so as to avoid giving the impression that it is no more than inexpressible. There is no way to catch in words the sublime things of God which happen in the soul. The appropriate language for the person receiving these favors is that he understand them, experience them within himself, enjoy them, and be silent.

In contemplative prayer, the believer will experience infusions of a burning love, but sometimes with little increase of "particular knowledge" that is, a person finds himself loving much, even without new understanding of who or what. Or the experience could be the reverse. There can be a wonderful inebriation that lasts for differing lengths of time, even as long as a day or two with varying degrees of intensity. The exhilaration can be so intense that it could even cause death. Nature would be torn apart were God not to impart strength or restrain Himself from fully pouring out His love upon us. So God is forced to manifest His love in divine "touches" of His Spirit.

A divine touch is a deep, intimate contact-union experience of God in one of His attributes such as power, light, goodness, beauty, or joy. It is not only a contact but also a union, and not only a union but also an experience. Touches are wholly divine and sovereign. The substance of God is a union-contact with the "substance of the soul." Although this touch is not the beatific life of Heaven, it is a "tasting" of eternal life. The soul tastes all the things of God: wisdom, love, beauty, grace, goodness, peace, joy, etc. Because God is all these things, a person enjoys them in only one touch of God. This contact brings incomparable peace and joy, for in the touch God is sublimely perceived in one of His attributes. As often as this experience occurs, it remains fixed in the soul. Since this communion is pure contemplation, the soul clearly understands that it is ineffable. These inner brushes or touches are contacts with the very Divinity, and they effect a union with God. There is no other experience similar or comparable to them. The inner peace, love, and transformation they engender more than compensate for all the trials suffered in life, even though innumerable, and at times God produces them when the person is not in the least thinking about such matters. These divine touches are worth more to the soul than numberless other thoughts, teachings or ideas about God and His works. It goes without saying that these sovereign contacts with Divinity immeasurably surpass the sublimest of earthly experiences. They are so deeply impressed, they can't not be forgotten. They will produce transforming love.

In the beginnings of infused prayer, more commonly one experiences a burning of love within the will rather than a light of understanding in the intellect. This common trait of touches makes it clear that they are not derived from our reasonings and meditations. Touches purify, strengthen and quiet a person, and they make the inner life more stable. They perpare the recipient to receive the permanently the divine union of espousal and eventually the transforming union itself. Everyone is called to this summit.

There is a close relationship between what we have just considered and what mystics call "wounds of love." Love touches deeply pierce one's inner center like fiery darts. They thus bring an immense torment and yearning to see God face to face in final vision. They cause a dying with love. What are these wounds? They are "flames of tender touches" and "tender flares of delicate love." There are many ways and varying degrees in which God cauterizes, sears the soul with love. While a person is inflamed with love for God it will feel that a seraphim is assailing it by means of an arrow or dart is all afire with love... In this cauterization, when the soul is transpierced with that dart, the flame gushes forth, vehemently and with a sudden ascent... The soul feels the wound with unsurpassable delight.

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The End Of Myself

I have just been through the hardest dying, flesh-crucifying, dark tomb experience in my entire life. I won't go into the details, but I had to die to a life long dream I have had since child-hood. Things where moving at full speed and all of a sudden everything was taken away. I'm not saying I didn't make mistakes. God knows that's true, but I truly thought this was God... and now that I have been through this incredibly painful process of dying to everything I held dear, I am realizing now that it was God. Everything is occurring just as planned by the all-knowing, all-loving Creator.

He has brought me back to the beginning of myself. This situation in my life has caused me to face myself and some life-long behavioral patterns. God has revealed to me why I've done things the way I have and felt things the way I have. He took me all the way back to the womb and began to speak to me concerning some major lies I have unknowingly believed. He is now revealing to me who He says I am and showing me my true identity.

I knew a lot of this in my head, but He is doing a new heart level thing with me now, and I really like it. I knew Him before, but I feel as though I am getting to know Him so much more now. He is becoming even more real to me.. so much more real. He is more real than this physical, material reality around us. I am experiencing that day by day and it is glorious. I feel as though I am becoming more and more alive.

Another thing I feel I have gained through all of this is real hope. I actually feel like I know what hope really means now. When, through a death experience, you choose to surrender your own will to the Father, He takes your will, your very soul as an offering. But He doesn't leave you empty. He replaces it with His will, with His life and with His love. On the other side we then have more of His divine nature then we did before. We have true joy and peace and hope. We are reborn into a new awareness of God and of His love. When we truly come to the end of ourselves, realize the emptiness of our own heart, and choose to die and surrender our will to His... we will find Him in the deep darkness of our souls and He will meet us there and give us life. True and lasting life. If we will pursue Him in the quiet stillness of our hearts, the journey He will take us on, the revelations of Himself He will give us, the profound, inexhaustible love we will know will be nothing but incomparable, inexpressible, incomparable, unexplainable, and matchless... because no words can describe what God will do in the inner chambers of our souls as He more than matches our self-sacrifice and longing for the Divine with His glorious, indwelling love that will lead to complete and total union and oneness with our Creator Himself.

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